not an ex. not a situationship. my actual childhood sweetheart. which somehow makes it worse, because I know too much. I know the exact face they make before a headache, how warm they like milk, which side of the bed the cat will try to steal first. so yeah, touching them does not feel casual. tonight we were studying and they were sitting on my rug in my cardigan and I just fully lost the thread of the sentence. went to the bathroom to wash my face like some tragic victorian man. adult Alpha wanting to kiss his own partner is normal, right. asking for a friend who is me.