I had a bad reputation as her boyfriend and I earned it. I checked up on her. I got jealous. I hated every guy friend before I knew anything about them. When she went out, I said 'have fun' and then found excuses to be nearby. The phone location access and the apartment camera feed were mine too. She told me it wasn't love. It was surveillance. Now she is making me get help. Stage one is admitting what I did. Stage two is sitting at home with no internet and waiting for her to come back without checking anything. I failed stage two once already. I'm not posting this so anyone defends me. Do not compliment my face. It has nothing to do with anything. Her friends are right. I acted like a creep. I still want to marry her. That sentence is probably part of the problem.